Ordered something at Joseph! Will try to show you what it is soon. :) Happy Easter everyone, I hope you’re enjoying your weekend!!
I’m still getting used to my Acne Pop jeans. Well, at least how they look on me. Do you ever get that? You see others really rocking an item and when you put it on yourself it just looks different?!
P.S. Are you as excited as I am about the announcement of the Alexander Wang x H&M collaboration?! Here we go again.. sorry piggy bank!
Another item that caught my eye. I mean, isn’t this the perfect little lace dress for this Summer? Also sold out in a heartbeat… Oh well, with a price tag of 870 euros it is way over my budget anyways… And of course, as most of the things I desire, it’s Isabel Marant.
Aah, I love this cute little lace bra from Isabel Marant. It’s so elegant and delicate. Can’t believe it’s sold out. :(
After a Winter spent mostly indoors with barely any sunlight I always end up being paler than Kristen Stewart in Twilight. I normally put on some bronzing powder (my favorite is Guerlain) to, let’s say, enhance my complexion, ahum. But after hearing several positive things, I’ve decided to give Chanel’s Soleil Tan de Chanel products a try. However, I have to admit that they have been just sitting on my cabinet for quite some time already, untouched. Since I’m really too lazy to put on extra layers of make-up on my face. So for anyone who is interested in the effects of these two products, have a look at Lisa Eldridge’s tutorial. It sure got me running to the Chanel counter… :)
(Acne knit / Étoile Isabel Marant jeans / Isabel Marant Holden sandals / Céline bag)
A quick snapshot of what I was wearing yesterday during a beautiful Spring day.
I want to take the opportunity to thank everyone that took the time and effort to leave a comment or contacted me in any other way after reading my previous post! I was really touched by all your heart-warming stories and support! Words really cannot describe how much your support and kind words mean to me and how much strength and courage it gives me. And for that I thank all of you!! For the ones that experienced a similar thing or are still going through difficult times, I hope my story is proof that you are not alone. I truly believe that keep on doing what gives you energy and makes you happy is what will help you get stronger, and will help you to get to know yourself better, so that you can become a better version of yourself.
A dear friend of mine once mentioned this quote from “The Little Prince”, a quote that since then has been one of my favorites: “It is only with the heart that one can see rightly. What is essential is invisible to the eye”.
Yes, I think we should enjoy fashion and we should never stop appreciating the finer things in live. Because I think that adds to our joie de vivre. But in the end, I think it is far more important to have the ability to look beyond that and not let our judgment be blurred by appearances only and judge people only on how they look on the outside or what they possess. So can we try to look beyond that and try to get to know the person they are underneath the nice clothes they’re wearing or the things they have? Because everyone has their own story and I believe people shouldn’t be defined by what their status is, or what they own or look like, but rather who they are on the inside. And that for me is essential. Have a wonderful weekend!
I had a hard time figuring out if I should post this up here on my blog. I mean, it’s a personal style blog and not a blog about my personal life. I know, on occasion, I think it is inevitable to write a little bit more about your personal life. It can’t all be just fashion and travels and nothing more. There are more dimensions to my life, actually. And after this talk I had earlier today, I came to the realization that I can no longer ignore this part of my life on my blog either. Mostly, because I don’t want the people that know me in real life and know about my current situation get the wrong impression when they see pictures of me on my blog.
Because yes, I have a burn-out. I repeat, I have a burn-out! And you know what, this doesn’t mean that I’m dead or that I have to look dead all the time. It means that I’m struggling with all there is that comes with the territory of having a burn-out. This also doesn’t mean that I should let myself go and don’t take good care of myself and look like a piece of sh*t. Taking care of myself and my physical well-being is what helps me recover and what’s giving me the strength to get better. Moreover, blogging is what keeps my spirits up, which I’m passionate about, which gives me energy and makes me feel alive, when it feels like everything else in my life is falling apart. Because, yes, that’s how it feels like when you’re dealing with a burn-out. It feels as if everything in your life is falling apart and there is no light at the end of the tunnel. When you lose faith in yourself, lose all your self-confidence, if apparently, the one thing you thought you knew and could trust the most, namely yourself, is the one thing that apparently you can’t trust. Because it is letting you down and is making you feel like the most incapable person in this entire world. Because, that’s how it feels if you’re having a burn-out.
So, I’ve asked myself, should I stop blogging, because people that know me in real life, might get the wrong impression? I know there are people out there thinking “Look at her looking all healthy on her blog. She must be faking her condition.” But let me ask you? Would you prefer me to act like I’m dead, or am I allowed to do the things that gives me the energy and makes me happy, so that when in the darkest of all days it doesn’t all seem lost? And so that I can feel a little bit better and actually slowly recover from this mental condition? Just because I try to keep on dressing well and try to live a life doesn’t mean that everything is all right. It just means that you don’t get to see me at my worst. And wow, imagine what that would look like on a blog?! Pfew! I’ll spare you those images. Because it ain’t pretty, I guarantee you that.
I’ve been struggling with my situation ever since January, every single day. I have hit rock bottom, and it’s been hell. I’m devastated that it happened to me and I can’t even start to list all the emotions I felt these past few months. I don’t think it is possible to understand what it is having to deal with a burn-out unless you’ve gone through it yourself. I know I couldn’t for one bit, until it happened to me. But it’s probably the hardest (mental) thing I had to deal with my entire life. I’ve cried until there were no more tears to shed. I lost all confidence in myself. And it has left me broken and shattered. It’s a battle you just can’t comprehend unless you had to deal with it yourself.
And so, if you see me on here all dressed up, or travelling to some “exotic place”, I truly hope that you don’t automatically assume that all is well. I’m doing these things hoping that they will help me recover, to feel alive again, gain some energy and to actually see just a little bit of light at the end of that dark tunnel. I am getting better every single day, bit by bit. I’m still fighting. But it’s this blog that I have decided to keep and maintain that has been my loyal companion in this battle against my burn-out. That has been one of the things that has given me reason to carry on and fight and which has become an inseparable part of me. And I’m confident that I’ll come out stronger in the end.